my life

brothers,sisters,thanks for inviting me =)

I enjoyed the nite,thanks for your hospitality,steamboat and the food~~"
hahaha...~


Just thanks for everything,kawan.

- viva la vidas -

- vaya con Dios -

fragile?

feel like I had drop to the deepest point of my life, I don't know what to do no more,you ignore me, what had I done wrong, I don't KNOW. I dun even think I know you, the real you. I'm always there,there for you,I lend you my ears for your problem,I will give you my shoulder if you need some one to cry with you, I don't know,don't know what to do anymore...

I feel like running,running away from you,but I have my principal,I dun run from problem, I want you to leave the past and embrace the future,with me.

if you reading this... pls... I just want u to know how much I love you.

ps: deep inside,I'm fragile. T_T

chasing dreams?

was chatting with aaron just now, as usual,we talk cock much,but then out of no where, it seems like I got a weird, real weird feelings that I'm slacking too much, ain't we ron? haha... here we go, talking bout our soon to reach STPM,the real final shots of high school. I don't regret my result suck big time,I always have ways to comfort my self from being carried away by emotions,result sucks,so? Do it better next time! like I said,the next time hard to come by.

Scared,I never scared of exam,but now I seems to looks thing from different perspective,and I see,there is responsible that is carried upon my shoulder,one is the family name,the pride and honor, another is my own future, now,I scare!!! Scare of failing,scare of loosing and now I scare of regretting things that I should had strive for the best!!!

Time never wait do they? I had told my self too many times,and I still wanna remind my self here that there is no more,NO MORE ROOM FOR SLACKING!!! IT'S NO LONGER A "GONNA DO" BUT IT'S A M.U.S.T!!!

Brothers and sisters, we can do it,and we will,do your best,and leave the rest to GOD. =)

- vaya con Dios -

ps/: I miss you,I really do,I tel you every night that I do! =)

Masuk kembali ke kandang

After 2 weeks,you just can imagine,the pretty much of the laziness that struck me today,sleepless night,as usual,as the world cup fever accompany me through the semester break,feel super lazy going back to 2nd home,aka school.

Nothing much on 1st day of back to "kandang" session. Get back the exam papers,didn't perform as I hope for,kinda sucks result. Itu lah,ask you to study you lazy,now u see,result suck already. But never mind,it's high time to take a time to look back,time is short,period to be in school is relatively,SHORT (hooray). Time to sit ma ass ad the chair,put ma hand upon d books,and start the study mode.

By the way,going for lawatan to parliament and followed by another trip to Haji-takda-moto factory. Gonna spend money again,better save up now,still got a lot of things to keep track on,may God and luck is on my side for this.


going to have ma beauty sleep now. Chiow. =)

~ vaya con Dios ~

Not bother it now

seems that I still got time *that is what I always think* before STPM aka The Valley of Death,m procrastinating ,take times as I pleased,wow,without I realize,time never stop moving,like breathing of course. Time,time,time,m older day by day,I wish I were younger with wiser choice making,maybe I will be smart enough to make a accurate decision for ma self,maybe I wouldn't be in this damn situation.

Anyway,time past,make a decision and don't look back,ever,just look in front and do the right thing.

Still got roughly 3 month time to the valley of death,gonna do the right thing now,time isn't gonna wait,just fight hard!

Keep your words,when you say it,make sure you deliver . Still got a lot to do!!! fighter,fight,fight,fight! =) Don't ever let a DREAM END AS A DREAM!!!

-God_bless-

100 vs 1

problem,not usually run from us,but instead,it come after us,no matter big,average,small,problem just seems to find it way under our unprepared mind,talking bout this nonsense,I'm indeed to be inside of the dunk! * ain't gonna blog bout it if isn't about me *

Things had been out of control,I hate it,just DAMN HATE IT!!! Feeling of loosing,another shit,feeling being isolated,damn shit,being ignored,f*cking shit! Now I know,why people like to say,you are only there when you needed,"MY HELP",I'm just a invisible shadow when you don't need ME! Now I can see the game going on,I never feel betrayed until this deep,I put trust in a friendships,and you'll cheated it away. I never realize that it was a trap from the very beginning,just happily accepted,as a trust,but now,I stupidly realize,I was so dump,you'll happily and successfully play with my trust,play the emotion game,like I care,I can fake a smile,doubtlessly,but things will never be the same,ever again,I never plan to stick to this friendship after all,that is why,I have 100 reason to leave,only 1 damn reason to stay.

To my bra_ther,this is not for you'll,thanks to my bra_ther and sista,you'll had been supportive all this while.

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO " siapa makan wasabi dialah terasa pedas " needless to say who, got eyes,observe,got ears,listen,got brain,THINK!

Dun wanna say no more,I never had any intention to go on war with anyone,just wanna express ma f*cking disappointment to "friends" I dun even know,should I be calling you'll friends. Just let it be,after this year,it's GOOD BYE,"FRIENDS"

Gonna do ma very best,me self,family and bra_ther are my priority,I dun need fake friends to flood my FB list,which I just don't.

God Bless

-carpe_diem-